I am on a rollercoaster ride! =X

Hey is this blog getting weirder???
I totally couldn't find the icons to change my font color and type.
How sad.

As what you can see about today's title,
Yeah.
I am on a rollercoaster ride.
Seriously my feelings are going up and down and up and down and so on very quickly.

Wow!
I am damn exhausted!

I feel so crazy,
how can I feel so happy and yet by the next minute I can feel damn gloomy and then extremely happy again? =X
But yesterday was truly a happy and sad day for me.

I PASSED MY SKILL TEST!!!
I got CVP Monitoring.
The easiest skill compared to the other 2 skills.
Congratulations to those who had passed this final skill test.
Great!
I feel so relaxed now.
No more re-test. =]

And regarding the sad thing...

I... feel so heavy again.
I can only let out a sigh.
I am getting messy again..
I always felt assured.
But the next day it was back to the old gloomy days again.
Am I having a dream?
A delusion?
Or I am just cheating myself again?

Yeah you peeps may just think that I am thinking too much and emo-ing again.
I guess but yeah.
I must not assume.

But neither should I find excuses to cover the blunt spot.
Hmm.
Maybe I shouldn't care so much about it after all.
I will just be myself.
Or else I will be suffocated to death by many things sooner or later.

Ok good..
Nothing can beat me.
I am all good =]
Yes.
After all,
this is what I have decided to do.
So I must carry on and walk down the path.
Jia you Liting.
I can tolerate it.
Persevere it.

I will update again.
See you.

I am a happy little girl. =X

It have been such a long time since I was this happy. =]

Haha..

As for why am I this happy,

I shall not disclose it totally.

My bad. =]

Hello peeps.

Thanks for reading again and I would like to thank everyone for the concern about me.

Everything is so fresh and nice again.

Beautiful memories kept popping up in my mind.

It was such a nice and gay feeling that I almost forget how nice a person can feel. =]

I thank God for it.

Thank you.

Ohh finally I get to watch Ice Age 3 [3D] with him.

Aww love those baby dinosaurs!

worth watching it. =)

He was kind enough to watch it with me even though he have already watched it with his friends.

Silly boy.

I thank you for accompanying me yesterday.

I am really enjoying it.

Even though it was a little awkward for me initially.

hoho=X

I am really happy that you love my prezzies!!.

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO YOU AGAIN.

Ah sorry,

everything was prepared the very last minute.

Because everything just happened so quickly within a matter of few days.

So forgive me if there is any shortcomings.

Love the clay smell hor =X

I couldn't really take it.

haha.

And for the fragrance I am super relieved that you like it.

I was super worried as i feel it was super duper risky to buy fragrance for people without knowing whether they will love such smell or not in guy point's of view.

LUCKY!

I hope that you are not saying it in order to comfort me when the fact is that you are not really keen to use it at all =[

*Cross fingers >~<

Another presentation down this morning.

Great.

I am still left with 2 presentations and a final skill test!

And off to the final semester exam!

Wow,

left one more month to go.

Well,

I am happy that everything was kinda right on track again.

Gosh..

It took me so long to be alright again.

Neyo-Part of the list

It describe my feeling for him now.

Here are the lyrics.

Style of your hair,
shape of your eyes and your nose,
the way you stare
As if you see, right through to my soul,

It's your left hand and the way
that it's not quite as big as your right,
the way you stand in the mirror
before we go out at night,

Our quiet time,
your beautiful mind,

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

The way you sweet smell
lingers when you leave a room,
(you leave a room)
Stories you tell as we lay
in bed all afternoon.
(all afternoon)

I dreamed you now every night
in my mind is where we meet.
(my mind is where we meet)
and when I'm awake
staring at pictures of you asleep.

Touching your face,
invading you space.

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

Oooh, and you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.
And you'll live in my memories forever more I swear.

They're a part of the list.
Things that I miss.
Things like your funny little laugh,
the way you smile, or the way we kiss.

What I noticed is this:
I come up with
something new, every single time
that I sit and reminisce.

This is my favourite song for now.

I kept repeating it.

The lyrics feel so true to me.

and it sounds so soothing.

Love it. ^-^

Oh it's time to say goodbye again.

But no worries I will update soon tomorrow regarding my skills results =]

Bless me and you.

Hello peeps.

Today is a very lonely day for me.

I feel so left out.

Because I am no longer part of his family.

While he is happy celebrating I am at home alone.

Today is so different from the past years.

Things keep changing and changing.

I wonder whether the things that I do is irritating or redundant not.

My existence seems to be disappearing slowly into thin air although I made some efforts.

Well well,

I am not that important person afterall.

Never mind.

I shall see how it goes.

Patience is the virtue.

Jia you ting.

Nothing will beat you down. =]

I just do what's the best that I can.

I will update soon again.

The ME.

Can you feel my sadness?

Old school feel.

Scary doll. =X

Paint me!

Shine me with your light.

Silence

Hello peeps.

I am here again to upload my unpublished photos =]

And by the way,

I will not go to clubs anymore so the existing clubbing photos from the previous post is taken off from my blog to prove my determination!

Haha.

I do wonder how many people are happy and sad about my decision.

I am all set.

Addie Baby told me that I am not cut out for clubbing.

Because she knew my pattern cannot control much.

I guess she is right,

So I must not go again.

I feel like I am "possessed".

I always feel so excited when I go clubbing,

but it ain't that fun at all!?

But I couldn't stop and party like crazy.

I am happy that such urges had died down now.

No more mistake.

Hmm,

I am in dilemma now.

What should I do?

I am totally looking forward to this Sunday. =X

Hee.

I am not going to tell you why..

>_<

Haha.

But I guess I need to do something about it.

Update again..

See you.

If we are meant to be, we will be.

*Happy*

*Solemn*

Oh yeah! Finally I know how to tackle this weird bug.

I have managed to find all those missing icons. [Though it's hidden]

So now I can blog to my heart's content. =]

It had been such a long time that I would sat down and blog seriously.

Many many things and events had happened to me during these 3 months.

I experienced emotions cocktail.

It was truly not a good 3 months for me.

Sad.

Angry.

Happy.

Frustrated.

Lonely.

Tired.

Irritated.

Hopeless.

Guilty.

Regretful.

What a wonderful formula for an emotions cocktail.

But well, I am glad to been through all these as it makes me feel more sensible and knowing what exactly that I wanted in Life.

I regretfully would like to apologise that things turned out to be like this.

I am at fault too.

I owed you too much.

You are really a Mr. Nice Guy.

[No inner meaning to it ok. =x]

Only that you met a Miss. Notti Girl.

If you remember what I told you that night.

Even though it is not a promise,

I feel it is way better than a promise.

I will prove it to you through time and action that

I,

Liting.

Can also have the determination to change my shitty character and not to repeat my graving mistake again.

This shitty mistake had cost me such a high price to pay!

I will not allow it to destroy me again.

This may sound crappy to you again,

but I do learn my lesson for real.

I had lost many precious things just because of it and I wouldn't enjoy even if I do it again.

So,

I will persevere on. =]

Ok,

I think I need to plan a short term and long term goals for my battle plan.

Examples of short term goals:

Enriching my time and enjoy what I can.

Such as,

Going to the GYM!!!

Gosh!

How many precious gyming sessions have I missed.

AWW.

I wasted all my previous effort now that my stamina is poor again due to constantly being sick recently.

So angry.

Gotta restart again.

Well never mind,

I will go back to the school gym after my skill exam and skill theory test is over. =]

As for the long term goal,

Sorry peeps.

I would like to keep it a secret. =X

I think many people will laugh at me saying that I am a stupid idiot.

But well,

I do not mind because I am SELFISH too!

I am also a human.

I hope I can get what I wanted ultimately.

All I want is a simple life and someone who really love me can be by my side.

This is such a far fetch DREAM.

A dream that might not be fufilled.

Anyway,

This will be the post to keep me reminded and prevent me from side-tracking again.

I really need to have faith in what I am doing and planning right now.

I hope my energy for it will last.

I am a pessimistic person so I guess I would need to try extra harder to keep myself from thinking too much.

Just relaxed and go along with the flow,

and who knows what fruits of labour I will get at the end of the passage way. =]

If we are meant to be,

we will be.

When TIME & TRUST is to be found again,

I believe that may be the time we will be together again.

I thank God for answering my prayers and that it turned out to be better than I expected surprisingly.

Hope God will lead me to him and

God will bless you too for you are a good person.

But I do admited that you are a very SELFISH person.

But I forgive you for doing so.

Because I do understand from your point of view.

So faster change your childish perspective ok?

I wonder how long will you take. =[

Very long.

Good luck then.

And good luck to me too.

I believe in fate,

who ridiculously brought us together before.

You find it amusing too right?

It amused me while thinking back.

And sorry regarding about the Good/Best friend request that I made to you.

Maybe this is the only way to keep me on track and happy.

See.

I am SELFISH.

But you have nothing to lose. =X

How sad!

I lost the icons again.

I couldn't post new pictures of me till this posting problem is solved. =[

Never mind, I will still update my blog again soon.

See you.

What is wrong with blogger?

Gosh!

I couldn't post as what I wanted.

I think there are bugs in the blogger or something inside have crashed!

DOT..

I DON"T EVEN KNOW WHAT I TYPING!!

I can only roughly see some parts of the post.

Sad, I was so eager to come back home to blog to my heart's content and then such things happened.

Sigh. =[

I guess I will have to wait another one fine day to blog nicely again.

Sorry peeps.

I will update again once the problem is fixed.. =[