If we are meant to be, we will be.

*Happy*

*Solemn*

Oh yeah! Finally I know how to tackle this weird bug.

I have managed to find all those missing icons. [Though it's hidden]

So now I can blog to my heart's content. =]

It had been such a long time that I would sat down and blog seriously.

Many many things and events had happened to me during these 3 months.

I experienced emotions cocktail.

It was truly not a good 3 months for me.

Sad.

Angry.

Happy.

Frustrated.

Lonely.

Tired.

Irritated.

Hopeless.

Guilty.

Regretful.

What a wonderful formula for an emotions cocktail.

But well, I am glad to been through all these as it makes me feel more sensible and knowing what exactly that I wanted in Life.

I regretfully would like to apologise that things turned out to be like this.

I am at fault too.

I owed you too much.

You are really a Mr. Nice Guy.

[No inner meaning to it ok. =x]

Only that you met a Miss. Notti Girl.

If you remember what I told you that night.

Even though it is not a promise,

I feel it is way better than a promise.

I will prove it to you through time and action that

I,

Liting.

Can also have the determination to change my shitty character and not to repeat my graving mistake again.

This shitty mistake had cost me such a high price to pay!

I will not allow it to destroy me again.

This may sound crappy to you again,

but I do learn my lesson for real.

I had lost many precious things just because of it and I wouldn't enjoy even if I do it again.

So,

I will persevere on. =]

Ok,

I think I need to plan a short term and long term goals for my battle plan.

Examples of short term goals:

Enriching my time and enjoy what I can.

Such as,

Going to the GYM!!!

Gosh!

How many precious gyming sessions have I missed.

AWW.

I wasted all my previous effort now that my stamina is poor again due to constantly being sick recently.

So angry.

Gotta restart again.

Well never mind,

I will go back to the school gym after my skill exam and skill theory test is over. =]

As for the long term goal,

Sorry peeps.

I would like to keep it a secret. =X

I think many people will laugh at me saying that I am a stupid idiot.

But well,

I do not mind because I am SELFISH too!

I am also a human.

I hope I can get what I wanted ultimately.

All I want is a simple life and someone who really love me can be by my side.

This is such a far fetch DREAM.

A dream that might not be fufilled.

Anyway,

This will be the post to keep me reminded and prevent me from side-tracking again.

I really need to have faith in what I am doing and planning right now.

I hope my energy for it will last.

I am a pessimistic person so I guess I would need to try extra harder to keep myself from thinking too much.

Just relaxed and go along with the flow,

and who knows what fruits of labour I will get at the end of the passage way. =]

If we are meant to be,

we will be.

When TIME & TRUST is to be found again,

I believe that may be the time we will be together again.

I thank God for answering my prayers and that it turned out to be better than I expected surprisingly.

Hope God will lead me to him and

God will bless you too for you are a good person.

But I do admited that you are a very SELFISH person.

But I forgive you for doing so.

Because I do understand from your point of view.

So faster change your childish perspective ok?

I wonder how long will you take. =[

Very long.

Good luck then.

And good luck to me too.

I believe in fate,

who ridiculously brought us together before.

You find it amusing too right?

It amused me while thinking back.

And sorry regarding about the Good/Best friend request that I made to you.

Maybe this is the only way to keep me on track and happy.

See.

I am SELFISH.

But you have nothing to lose. =X

How sad!

I lost the icons again.

I couldn't post new pictures of me till this posting problem is solved. =[

Never mind, I will still update my blog again soon.

See you.