Singlehood.

Singlehood.
Who will thought that this word will slammed right into my face again after 2 years plus.
I AM SINGLE YET COMPLICATED.
Today is the beginning of my school life.
I woke up, and I saw my ex asking for a TIME-OUT.
At first I was sleepy, I thought that I was dreaming.
But, it ain't a dream that I wish it to be.

I really really thought that we will be together forever.
Are we really taking things for granted,
so used to having each other in our lives?
I think I should question this problem to myself too.
But,
afterall I still longed for him.
Only him.

Fate had brought us together in the strangest way,
I am sure that he was fated to be mine,
he will come back to me after he has sorted out the answer.
So..
This could be the 3 months we will be totally ignoring each other.
OR.
This could be forever.

My eyes are so tired for crying around 7 hours or so.
Straight.
I always thought that I will be strong this time.
But I've failed.

This is killing me.
The time of waiting during these 3 months.
He told me to take care of myself.
But I guess I couldn't.

God please do not forsake me.
Please do not forget there is still a little child here under your wings.
Bless me will you?

I truly wait for the right day to come.
Don't give me any more shock.
Please, my heart couldn't tolerate it.

3 months of silence...
So devastating.
Yet so eager to know the answer.
In my small part of my heart,
I hope afterall he will choose me again.
But a big part of me says no way,
it's gonna be over...

I am so happy that I can blog to vent my sadness out.
Thing just went out of what you can grasp.

If this relationship has failed me,
I will not be able to pursue new love anymore.
I am so tired from it.
Don't shut my warm heart.


GOOD BYE MY LOVE.