2nd Day..

Today is the second day since the incident break up..
I was trying my best to stay happy in school as today is my first day going to school.
Being in school do divert my attention for abit.
I thought that I am good today,
I wasn't crying anymore.
But I still end up crying while waiting for my next lab lesson.
Whatever I do, I see, I talk, I hear, I think, I feel, I miss...
It's all about..
Him.

Now the only thing that I enjoy is blogging.
Looking at all my past entries posts had made me feel that I am growing more and more matured.
More and more grown up.
The way I use words to express myself in the post are no longer the same.
People really do change all the time.
There's nothing you can trust.
Nothing.
Not promises.
Not vows.
There's really no guarantee to anything.
I am so confused..
All these might make me into depression.
Soon.
I blame myself.
For not being a good person,
a good girlfriend,
a guai girl girl.
Karma had hit me not once but twice.
I am so rotten.
I am confused upon love and overly dependent.
It connects,
But I also think that overly dependent also can be call as longing.
Everything is so connected till I really don't know what exactly it means anymore.

I couldn't sleep well last night.
I woke up 5 times.
on and off.
Even though I am feeling so tired.
Guess I am too stress out.
I didn't even dream.
I am a frequent dreamer.
You dream when you slept well.
But I guess I wouldn't have any dreams anytime soon.

I am surprised that I have lost weight about 2kg in just one single day.
Being too stressed and sad really do thin you down.
I am trying to eat.
For someone sake.
Trying.

I would like to thank all my those who has been showing me concern for these 2 days.
I really appreciated it alot.
You guys has given me many love and concern.
I am happy that I am actually wanted.
Thank-you again people.
=]

Will update soon.
Tommorrow maybe?